"It just so happens that my flesh is turning pale And pieces of me are disappearing as though my hands were whales And it just so happens beauty, you could never recognize And I simply faded away, before your eyes"
21:37 & 27.08.02
I tried to dye my hair, parts of were sunbleaced white and some darker and I wanted all to get a little bit of pigment. But now it is ashblonde. Not flattering.
I asked Craig if he could love me a lot right now, because I don't feel so well (self esteem is kind of not there). He misunderstood and thought I was critizing him. I wasn't, and I was so tired and disappointed because of my hair and drained for energy and motivation because of work -- that I became a super crisp roller coaster.
I just want to hide away, or meet people that cannot guess that I am not doing so well right now. That doesn't see how pathetic I am. Pretend everything is okay.
I feel like a super super bad person.
I need Rag4 so we can laugh it away, about how pathetic I am. [So everything will be okay again. Please]