"Fragile"
13:39 & 30.05.02
I feel so fragile right now. I have for a while. Mr. Nameless - turbulence, exams, work, no apetite (feels like I'll throw up every time I eat) and still forcing myself to eat (not fun).
Now I have to admit that psychiatrist was right. I end up lacking skin when I have people too close (like Craig). That's when the scars become visible. I don't want them to be a part of me.
I want to be thick - skinned, forgiving, extremely tolerant, giving, and be able to laugh when Craig says my butt is big. - That I didn't hate it when someone say that I should be careful about (I hardly eat at all) what I eat or that I eat too little.
And I feel so sorry for you. You have been like my sister to me, and you still are, even though we don't talk these days. To loose your baby like that. How do you manage to get through the days?