"Last night I dreamed I was dreaming of you"
18:10 & 19.05.02
I can't get hold of Craig. I try not to let it affect me, but he was so worried when he couldn't get hold of me [so why shouldn't I be worried now]. I hope this isn't some sort of "revenge".
Rag4 brought me the two new Tom Waits cd's. I love Tom Waits. Now I can hardly wait to go home and listen to them. I find it hard to consentrate today. I am studying Gothic architecture and it feels like I remember what I am reading, but I am not sure. Marie showed me black and white photos that she developed yesterday. One of them was a rather cute naked photograph of Marius [boyfriend]. He is so much better for her than the last one. It tickles in my heart every time I see glimpses of Princess Märtha Louise and Ari Behn on tv [during our breaks]. Declaring their love.
I get messages on my phone (sms) [distracting] and I try to let them rub off, just like that. Some of them are really flattering. And a part of me thinks why not let him flatter me. See what's there. If Craig was only a little bit closer I wouldn't have doubted one moment what to do.
I feel bad for liking these messages and bad because I don't tell him to stop. [I will. Soon. Promise]. It's not like me to do this.