"To be very honest"
17:28 & 26.04.02
Why is it that boys don't want to talk on the phone for "hours". Craig was counting the minutes last night (I called him) and then he said he didn't want to talk for hours and hours. It made me pretty much upset. I am still upset. Talking with him is the only chance I have to feel a little closer to him, to get to know him.
I guess I feel hurt. - And because there is so much stress right now, I am not getting over this as soon as I usually would.
Actually, to be very, very honest... I said something I regretted the second after I said it - and as I was about to say that I was sorry and that I didn't mean it (I said he didn't make me feel like marrying him as much and he said he didn't either... which didn't make me any more secure about this) he said the same thing.
Sometimes, - I guess this is just a at-the-moment-feeling, I want to be single and care - free and just flirt and have fun. Have a date now and then, but nothing serious. Just summerish, and being a little bit more shallow. I am exercising on being a little bit more shallow. Psychiatrist said it's too exhausting to be so aware of everyone else feelings, including mine.
I think I will let the "marry" thoughts rest for a while. After all, we need to get to know each other first.